Hope It Gives You Hell.

Hello friends,

I was in two minds about whether or not to write this post or not because I’m not the kind of person who likes to reopen old wounds and poke around in them but in this case I feel like there a lot of things that, for me, have been left unsaid and I know that if I leave them like that they’re going to twist around in my gut and haunt me for years to come like “maybe things would’ve been different if I’d just have said _____ ” or “if only I’d done ____ “. So, yeah, for my own peace of my mind, here’s everything I could’ve said which most likely won’t actually change a thing. To be honest, I’m not actually sure I want anything to change. So there’s that.

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The Only Thing.

Hi, Hello, How are ya?

Today I’m feeling grateful for mothers, specifically my mum. The reason for this is because, put simply, she refuses to give up on me and I can’t ever repay her for that. That won’t stop me trying though. Lately I feel like it’s best to repay her by proving her right, that I am in fact the most talented, beautiful, precious angel the world has ever been blessed with – as you can probably tell, my progress is slow considering I am just a small hobbit bashing keys trying to make a semi-literate sentence. Anyway, as usual the thing I ended up writing is extremely depressing and bleak so I’d recommend that if you’re sensitive to things like that, you should pass on this. Rest assured that I’m half-way to okay so there’s no real risk, contrary to what this poem would have you believe.  What’s the point in having black moods if you can’t draw on them and make them into a little piece of prose huh? Am I right or am I right. If you do happen to enjoy the dark stuff and like this post please do let me know by, y’know, liking it!

Until next time,

Eilidh

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Sunshine Smiles

First off, I know the title and entire poem are cheesy to the extreme, ok? This is something that I know. But, I’m going to post it anyway because sometimes life needs cheesy stuff to make all the terrible things (like Trump) a little less terrible. Now I sound like I think my sh*tty poem is going to make Trump better (IMPEACH HIM) so I’m just going to shut up and let you read the dumb thing. Enjoy!

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Hi, its me.

I know, I know. It’s been way too long since I posted something on here, truth be told it’s been so long I actually forgot the name of this website. I’ve kind of just been taking some much needed time to work on myself because things got a little bleak back there for a sec. To explain just how badly I was spiraling, I’ll leave a draft I wrote last year below. I don’t remember why I didn’t publish it at the time, I think maybe doing so and putting it out there would have made it too real for me. I guess I thought if I pretended I was fine then eventually I would be. Anyway, since then I’ve been going to counselling and all that jazz so I’m getting there. Part of getting there, for me anyway, is accepting and forgiving myself for being out of control sometimes. So as a public show of acceptance for my wonderful brain please feel free to dive in and experience one of my bouts of madness first hand. I hope I don’t regret this.

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Someone New.

Hey guys,

sorry I’ve been silent for so long; it’s been a rough few weeks. I haven’t been in the best space lately but I’m finally getting out of my brain funk and getting my life back on track  – hooray! Quick life update: I have a job interview at Edinburgh Zoo on Tuesday and I am so excited! Working there would be an absolute dream so fingers crossed (eeek). Also, as I’m sure you can gather from this poem I’m currently going through a break up (Again.. but it’s with the same person as before so it’s not as bad right? right). Anyway, I hope you enjoy reading this excerpt of my brain and tell me what you think in the comments below.

Yours,

Eilidh x

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Promise.

Hey Guys!

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while, it was my 18th birthday last week and things have been pretty hectic to say the least. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this short story, it’s a bit rough around the edges because not enough time has passed for me to properly process and get my thoughts in order yet but hopefully by writing this out I’ll be able to untangle them all and make some sense of the situation haha.

Happy Reading!

Eilidh x

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